Quote

I think I'll start making "quotes of the day"...

Today's is: "physical pain will never hurt as much as emotional pain."

Happiness

I've slacked on writing. I'm not even sure you read this anymore. But I remember I didn't start this ever thinking you would read it. I started it because it made me happy to get these thoughts out. You seem happy these days. Every story involves you and him & it makes me wonder if that's how you used to talk about us. Did you relate every conversation to a memory of us? Did you share the moments we made with those around you because your heart was so overwhelmingly full of happiness that it just overflows? It scares me. It worries me. But I always promised that if be by your side so if that means watching you fall deeper in love with someone else then ok. All I ever wanted for you is your happiness.

My immortal

For some reason these words remind me of you.

"When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me"

You will always have all of me

A Thousand Years

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave?

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

But watching you stand alone,

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer

[Chorus:]

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

[Chorus:]

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

Letting You In

This is probably the cause of why we aren't together. It's the cause of why I can't allow anyone else in. Because I finally see I should have let you in, and now that I have I want to continue cuz I see how close it makes us. It only sucks cuz I wonder how close we'd be had I realized this in our relationship. It also shows me that you are making the same mistakes I made. You say you let your boyfriend in but you don't. And I don't want that for you. While I wish things were different they aren't. I want you to be happy and I know if you don't allow yourself to feel and let someone in you will wake up one day regretting every day you breathe. This is why I will always let you in. Because the opposite is not being close to the one person I should be closest with..my soulmate.

My birthday!

I know I'm super late with this one, I apologize. Between the promotions at work and such its been hectic. But I still managed to post.

My birthday is coming up!!! I'm so excited....except for the fact this is the first birthday in 7 years that I'm not celebrating with you. I don't even want to think of the holidays in the month to follow as well as the monuments of our relationship that follow that so I'm just gonna focus on my birthday and hope I see you on or around it. I wish we could just go to Vegas just me and you and celebrate my birthday. Could you imagine us in Vegas??? Lol crazy!! But anyways I just wanted you to know that I haven't stopped believing in us or this blog. I love you.