Something about you

"Something About You"

Over and over and over I try

To get you off of my mind

But I can't win the fight

There's a feelin' I know

When I'm losing in love

It's the feeling I get when I can't get enough

Something about you babe

Makes me feel the way I do

Know that I love you babe

So ya treat me like a fool

Wanna tell me babe

How I fit into your plan

DOn't ya deceive me baby

I'm just tryin' to be your man cause

Oh nobody ever made me feel the is way

And of I think and dream about you every day

And of I could get you out of my mind

Oh but every time I try to run away

Over and over and over I try

To get you off of my mind

But I can't win the fight

There's a feelin' I know

When I'm losing in love

It's the feeling I get when I can't get enough

(something about you baby)

Something about you baby

Changed the way I look at need

Is it obsession baby

Or just curiosity

Takin' advantage baby

Of my sensitivity

Do what you wanna babe

Just back me sanity

Oh no other loves affected me before

Girl you change the rules but I come back for more

I'm a player in this game I'll never win

This addictive love's about to do me in

Over and over and over I try

To get you off of my mind

But I can't win the fight

There's a feelin' I know

When I'm losing in love

It's the feeling I get when I can't get enough

(something about you baby)

Over and over I try

To get you off my mind

But I can't win the fight

There's something about you baby

When I think about you baby

There's no doubt about it baby

I know it's suicide to stay

But baby everytime I try to run away

Oh it's just something about you baby

Over and over and over I try

To get you off of my mind

But I can't win the fight

There's a feelin' I know

When I'm losing in love

It's the feeling I get when I can't get enough

Something about you babe

Something about you baby

Something about you babe

Something about you

Over and over and over I try

To get you off of my mind

But I can't win the fight

There's a feelin' I know

When I'm losing in love

It's the feeling I get when I can't get enough

What sucks the most

I think what sucks the most is having things going on in my life and not being able to talk to you about them until your able to talk😒

😍😍your gorgeous

I've always considered you one of the most beautiful women in the world and this is why! I love your smile!!

Growth

I write this as the last entry I shall make. I've decided to no longer write this blog. Though the love I have for you will span the rest of my life, I feel I must let go of any notion of us together. You are by far one of the most amazing women I will ever know and I thank you for teaching me to grow up. For teaching me that I don't have to be scared to love someone because of my past or how I was raised. I thank you for supporting me the years you did and always having my back and rooting for me. I will never be able to repay all the things you've done for me emotionally and throughout our time together. I see now that there is no longer a path for either of us walk that leads to us. I haven't decided to close the blog yet but feel maybe I should. Idk. I just know that we've grown apart. Not only did we grow apart in a relationship but I also now see our friendship will never happen. We barely talk when we do its not the same it's almost forced. I don't want to remember us like that. I choose to remember the good days. But in doing so I got caught up in the old days. And for that I apologize. I started to see the pause in your relpies when I say I love u or miss u. Crazy the things I notice now compared to back then. But anyways point I'm making is I will always love you and you will always be my soulmate but I see now there is nolonger an us or any inkling of us. I hope you find happiness and I hope you remember I love you to the moon and back. We both out grew our time together. Nothing wrong with that. 

Hardest part

The hardest part about loving you, is knowing I loved you much too late & watching you love another man. I don't know how long I can keep this up.

Favorite Memory #7

Some of the most amazing moments of my life came at random times. One of those random times are the times we'd be somewhere and there'd be music or even when there wasn't any music and we'd just dance in my parents kitchen. I vividly remember holding you close thinking to myself I held the world in my arms. It didn't matter what was going on in life at that moment everything washed away and it was just us. It was the cocky hood guy that met the gorgeous country girl. It was ur old house when you used to have to use the truck to come see me at night. It was the young kids that went to Seattle and stuck the heart on the wall in gum because we wanted to proclaim our love to everyone who seen it. That's the moment I miss. Holding you close and feeling your soul connect with mine. 

When I was your man

Bruno Mars - When I Was Your Man

This song has me thinking hard because it's literally my feelings towards us. I should've done all the things I do now back then when I had you and I didn't. But no matter what all the things talked about in the song you deserve and like I told you the other day, if ever you feel less than the wonderful woman you are, or someone tries to make you feel small or less than them than you do not need to be with them. You could've stayed hurting with the person I was before if you got out of a relationship of hurt to get into another one of hurt. But I love you to the moon and back and always will.

How I feel lately

I've driven almost every car

It ain't the same when I'm without you,

Been around a million stars

None of them shine brighter than you

The sky is so dark now without you

Us

I remember this day like it was yesterday. Crazy to think we aren't really outside lol. But it's one of the many days I'll always remember because our love was captured in a snapshot. I love u and I miss u. Hopefully this pic will make you smile like it does me.

Soulmate

A gift for you!

Your amazing

This is how I stare at you..

One Person

Favorite Memory #12

One of my favorite memories of us is dancing in the kitchen. I don't think I'll ever be able to do that with anyone else. Just the joy I felt holding you and dancing even when there wasn't music. Just your body close to mine sharing a moment in our lives we'll never forget. I love you. Happy Valentine's Day.

The Worst

Even Facebook knows what the truth is.

I miss you

This not seeing you & not talking to you thing sucks😢😢😢 I miss u 

I want you

I love you

I love you to the moon and back

Your Smile

I will never be able to explain to you how much your smile brightens my day. 4 years ago I lost scooby and today I lost my grandfather and the only thing to make me smile all day is this picture. I love you I miss you and I wish I had you here to help me through this. 

I know typically this wasn't about me, but today just sucks. I finally open up to my family and close circle about the goals and ambitions I have and they don't believe in me. It was full of "what ifs" and "well that's not how things happen" instead of the support and belief I needed. It just sucks because nobody around me believes the dream I believe. It just makes me wanna give up. And it's like if nobody things the way I do then who am I to even still believe in this. Why even do this anymore. Why even think things are gonna change. Why not accept that this is life and this will be life. Seems like believing in anything other then the present is foolish. 

One of those days

It's just one of those days today...

Cosmic

It'll never be lost. It's all cosmic and shit. It's like our atoms were next to each other's in the Big Bang. Like it was more right then right so it'll never be gone. We can fight it ignore it bury it but it'll never be lost.

ANYTIME

Lately I've been alittle busier then usual at work, which cause us not to talk as much or I get the sense that you feel like I don't have time for you or anything like that. Well this post is gonna be the one that you come back to anytime you feel like that. I love you. I have always loved you and will always love you. Your my soulmate. I love hearing about your day and what's going on in your life. I love the 10 minute calls we have to sneak in. I love seeing your smile. I wake Up every day hoping its you I turn over and see. I'll never be too busy for you or not have time for you. Your gonna be my wife someday I don't care what anyone has to say about it they gotta go through me. While right now I'm not with you but just know im always thinking of you. I love you honeybee.

Shame

If ever there was a song about how I feel about things that have happened between us it would probably be this one. I love you.

https://youtu.be/O9capxlmuh4

I need your forgiveness

And your mercy too

I must be all kinda crazy

For what I've done to you

I hope you understand

That my heart is true

Mistakes, I've made em

But I'm making a change for you

Have I learned, is your question

And my answer "I have"

But if you're expecting perfection

Then we're not gonna last

This is not an excuse

I'm just telling the truth

Baby, I'm so sorry

For hurting you

Oh, I'm ashamed of me (Shame on me)

Wish I never done you wrong (Shame on me)

Every night of us I dream

That I wake up in your arms

I know why you left me

But since you've been gone

My understanding

Has more than grown

I've come to this conclusion

Over and over again

I don't want an enemy

I just want back my friend

Oh, I'm ashamed of me (Shame on me)

I wish I never done you wrong (Shame on me)

Every night of us I dream

That I wake up in your arms

Wish I could say sorry

Oh will you come back home

Hey, baby, yeah

I wish diamonds can do it

So I wouldn't have to be alone

Yeah, hey

If I knew then what I know now

Everything would be

Yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm so ashamed, ashamed of me (Shame on me)

Said I wish I never done you wrong (Shame on me)

Every night of us I dream

That I wake up in your arms

(I'm ashamed of me)

I'm ashamed of me, yeah (Shame)

Baby, I'm ashamed

I'm so sorry, babe

I'm so sorry

Happy Birthday!

*im posting this early incase I fall asleep and don't hear my alarm at midnight.*

5 years ago I knew you were the one. Today I'm willing to bet my life on it. We've seen the best of each other and the worst of each other. And I wouldn't trade anything for it. I love you and though I can't be with you for your special day just know you'll constantly be on my mind. I hope you have an amazing birthday! I love you.

The Old Us

I feel us becoming the old us again. The times when you were like my best friend. We talked about everything and anything. I love that. It really makes me happy that we are getting back to our friendship because it's an essential part of life to me to have you there to hear about your day and tell you bout mine and you know what's going on it just feels good to know that your there for me to talk to. Lately we've been distant or actually I've been distant and I want to apologize. I should've at least did better of communicating that i was busy or that I had dead lines to meet. I never want you to feel that I'm not here for you. Lately you haven't been as happy as I've liked you to be in your life and I just want you to know I will help you accomplish that in any way I can. I love you.

Happy Anniversary

I didn't know how to start this at first. I tried to think of all the things I'd want to say to you if I could. I thought of telling you all the dreams I have of a future together. I thought of describing in detail what our kids look like. But then I thought why not tell you the things that make me love you. I love the way you pout when you don't get your way. I love the innocence I see behind your eyes. The soul inside of you is so pure and so caring. I love you because you are perfect even with your flaws. I wish I could form sentences in which I explain what feelings are in my heart. I can only relive memories of the amazing times we hung out and had fun together. Lol I'm rambling on because I've never been able to fully explain how much you mean to me. I just want to say even though it's no longer our anniversary, happy anniversary. I love you.

January 3rd

1/3/16 is gonna suck.