Growth

I write this as the last entry I shall make. I've decided to no longer write this blog. Though the love I have for you will span the rest of my life, I feel I must let go of any notion of us together. You are by far one of the most amazing women I will ever know and I thank you for teaching me to grow up. For teaching me that I don't have to be scared to love someone because of my past or how I was raised. I thank you for supporting me the years you did and always having my back and rooting for me. I will never be able to repay all the things you've done for me emotionally and throughout our time together. I see now that there is no longer a path for either of us walk that leads to us. I haven't decided to close the blog yet but feel maybe I should. Idk. I just know that we've grown apart. Not only did we grow apart in a relationship but I also now see our friendship will never happen. We barely talk when we do its not the same it's almost forced. I don't want to remember us like that. I choose to remember the good days. But in doing so I got caught up in the old days. And for that I apologize. I started to see the pause in your relpies when I say I love u or miss u. Crazy the things I notice now compared to back then. But anyways point I'm making is I will always love you and you will always be my soulmate but I see now there is nolonger an us or any inkling of us. I hope you find happiness and I hope you remember I love you to the moon and back. We both out grew our time together. Nothing wrong with that.