Here's some things I've never told you and I regret every day not telling you;
When we decided not to have the baby, though it was partially my choice, it eats at me daily. It is one of the biggest mistakes I've ever made. I should've fought harder for them. I should've did more. I was only thinking of myself. I'm so sorry. I live with that every day that I made u do that. I hate myself for it. I hate myself every day because all I want is to be with you and have a family and when I had the chance I blew it. I'm sorry I didn't fight harder for y'all. I'm sorry I ant heal that wound. I didn't know how to love you and couldn't love them. It's my fault and I die every day about it.
This whole thing makes me happy sometimes tho. As weird as it sounds. I'm happy that you've moved on. I'm happy that you've found someone to love you. You deserve it. I might not care for him but I'm thankful for him. He got you to smile again. And i don't mean smile with your mouth I meant your heart. I see the light in you again. And it's beautiful and I love it. You should never blame yourself for anything. Your perfection in the flesh. You deserve the world. I love you.
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